Walking In Obedience
Last year, God called me to write something, and I didn’t want to. So, I kind of ignored what he had asked me to do. However, through a friend of mine, God reminded me of what it was he had asked me to do, and brought it back to my attention that I still hadn’t done it. This time, I knew I had to do it, and so I told a friend and began writing. But it wasn’t that easy. I started writing the next day, and what I produced was, well let’s just say…. Garbage. There’s actually no better word for what I wrote the first day. Honestly, it was terrible. I hated it and I became so discouraged. I didn’t even want to continue. I was upset with myself, because I was finding that writing what I was called to, was really challenging. It wasn’t a blog post, or a magazine article, it was bigger, and I realized that I didn’t feel like I was the right girl for the job.
In my devotional time I spent with God, I was brought to Hosea. If you haven’t read Hosea, I’ll keep it brief, and explain that God told Hosea to marry a prostitute named Gomer. He told him to do this, because he was speaking through Hosea to the Israelites, who were being disobedient. I highly encourage you to read the whole story; it’s actually beautiful. Anyway, I began thinking about what God asked Hosea to do and how I could actually relate to him -not that God asked me to marry a prostitute. Let me explain. God told Hosea to do something that most people - if not all people at the time would find it doesn’t make sense. They might say, first, why would God use you? Or why are you marrying a prostitute? He was going to recieve judgement from those around him and be misunderstood. People weren’t going to get it, and he knew that, but he was still obedient. God has asked me to write something. Something that at my age, I don’t know everything about. But he asked me to do it. I don’t have all the answers, but I have a relationship with someone who does- Jesus.
What I wrote the first day, like I said was awful. At the point of discouragement, I called a friend. My friend began to tell me that it was a good thing that I was challenged by this. It means, I need God and I can’t do it alone. This needs to be God’s work through me, and it is going to be hard. I am challenged, and I need to rely on God. So, that night I wrote an entire paragraph on how much I didn’t want to write it, and how angry I was at the topic. The next day I woke up with so much direction, and ideas, and I began writing. It came to me instantly. Not only that, but each one of my friends that I have talked to this past week have somehow landed on the subject of what I was called to write about. I am reminded of those who need to hear what God is speaking through me. God has encouraged me and reminded me that just because I am young, doesn’t mean I can’t fulfill a calling. To other people it may be strange, it may not make sense and it may look crazy for a 20 year old to be writing about something like this. But that doesn’t matter. I can’t wait until I think I am ready for it, because that time may never come. I may never feel totally ready or prepared, I just need to trust God with what he has placed in front of me and be confident while walking in obedience.
So, let’s get real. What have you been called to? Maybe it’s huge and it scares you. Maybe you don’t have enough money, or enough resources, and think it is impossible. But there’s one thing, you can’t argue with and that is the fact that God has called you to do it. If you stand and wait for the “right” time, or enough money, or enough people, you could risk never fulfilling your calling. Sometimes God asks us to do something that doesn’t make sense, or that seems impossible, and is too big for us. That’s just it. It is too big for us, but it’s not too big for him. When we are obedient to God’s word, he acts, and he acts big. I don’t know what is going to come of this project, but I know God has asked me to do it. Sometimes that’s all you know. You don’t know how, when, where, but you know what he has asked of you. I am not saying, go and spend all of you money, and be foolish. I am speaking to the person who knows exactly what God has called them to do, but are too scared to step out and try. Those who risk failure, also risk success. What’s your calling? Go and do it.